Appearances

Do you ever have those days where you really look in the mirror for the first time in ages and you think, "When did that happen?" I'm not saying that I am suddenly 43 years old or that I didn't realise I had a bruise on my face or something. I just realised I was a lot older than I used be. You look at yourself in the mirror daily, but it's always in a deconstructing fashion - brush hair, brush teeth, put on eyeliner. I just saw myself today and thought, "I might need to stop saying I look 12."

Then, as I was walking to work this morning, I looked up at the construction that's been going on up the hill since I moved in. There's a huge building there! Now, this might sound like I should have noticed, but it was so gradual. The only constant in life is change. Hm.

Then, all this surface thinking made me remember a comment of my dad's: you are always sending a message with the way you look (he usually followed this up with "make sure your statement isn't 'I'm stupid.'"). I then realised that it's super easy to pick out my type of guy. Look for the scroungy-hippie-hipster-esque looking guy who is contemplating the sky, a tree, or a book and I'm pretty much sold. I then naturally tried to figure out what message I was sending and who I was attempting to attract.

Unfortunately, I think the system is flawed because my message is "I'm cold." I have been having a very hard time adjusting to the cold again. I think it takes some time for the cold to seep back into your bones. So I have been wearing enough layers to make my mom warm ("Nice and warm!"), which is really a measure of practicality rather than attraction. So maybe I'm attracting nice, practical guys.

Boo.